From the first meeting to the final rush
I have loved you
Through all of the hell you put me through
From the first bit of pain to the last intimate moment
I have loved you
I can't get away from you
You are the heroin in my veins
I can't stop these flashbacks from coming
I can't get you out of my mind
I don't want to be with you as a pair
But I do want to see you again
I'm going crazy with all this nonsensical talk
I know that what I want is wrong
Mr. Right hasn't come along yet
All I have is you

From the first gasp to the final scream
I have loved you
Through all of the cuts, the pain, the alcohol, and drugs
I have loved you
Depression took over us both
You have gotten over yours
I'm still stuck in my eddy of despair
I can't get out
I'm drowning

You are my drug
I shouldn't want you or need you
But I do.
I shouldn't see you or kiss you
But I do.
I shouldn't make love you to
But I do.
It's so hard when you were my first, my everything

No matter what I do
I can't seem to get rid of this addiction
Even when you are abusive and cruel
I still want you at times
At the lowest points in my life
Please help my sever these ties
And in the process save my life.